The stress never ends

So this week began with yet again another trip to the doctor's office. Four weeks in a row.  :(   Though I'm now recovering and closer to normal, I was/am suffering from a head/chest cold virus. That put me once again in the position that my practice was limited to listening to my recordings. I am soooo stressed with all of this. Going from singing to I can't sing. I still can't hear myself correctly because of my left ear (which is slowing getting better) but still. I'm starting to freak out since my jury in only a few weeks away and I haven't perform anything this semester. I'm still trying to get out of my music and into memory. I was so worried about it last night that it took me two hours to fall asleep after I took medicine with codeine in it. I'm just so worried that I won't pass my jury because I don't have any other options. Next semester is student teaching so it can't be pushed back. And this streak of illness is disrupting other classes too. There is just so much riding on all this right now that I can't really afford (in all meanings) to screw this up. I just need a miracle.

Week of greatness

This week has been great for despite still struggling through my ear infection. After getting the news from my doctor that my choices were to wait it out or have a tube put in, I decided it was time to getting vocalizing again despite only hearing normally on one side. I went to my lesson and got to work. Though the sound in my head is muffled, my pitch was pretty good and my languages are getting better and better. Throughout the week, my songs have been playing in my head so I know that my memory is getting better too. Today I practiced with Mr. Phil and it was awesome as well. We went through some of the songs that haven't been focused on in lessons and even with some stumbles it all went well. He even said that my languages have improved since last semester. I asked him how my voice sounded since it's odd in my head and he said that it was sounding great. You combine all this breakthrough work with the wonderful weather of this week and my mood couldn't get any better. Now it's time to keep listening and practicing and get ready for my jury in a month. :S

Round 2

This week has been another tough week. My ear infection is still not heal and I discovered that a volume level of normal speech to my right ear comes though as a whisper to my left ear. I can't sing and create like this and I have my recital jury in a month. I'm nervous and scared that it's more then an ear infection and it's gonna turn into more permanent damage and hearing loss. This afternoon I'm going to sit down and find all my songs in my Itunes (or get the ones I don't have) because I can learn by listening without singing. My lesson this week was good though. The chanting of everything really gets me to focus on the languages and forget about the notes (as much as I want to sing them right now). All and all things are moving along, I'm just very worried and stressed about what is ahead.

Week from hell

So this week has been terrible for me. I'll openly admit that I have made zero progress with my voice work. I only made it to school one day this week between the weather and my ear infection. I'm on two antibiotics and still can't really hear out of my left ear. But last week was really good for me and I've made some great progress on French pronunciation. Hopefully all this will clear up and I can start off next week with a fresh productive start.

new thing

So this is just a post to see if I have this working right....